Five of Cups is striking. Immediately gives a feeling of sadness and despair. The color of the horse is white, which symbolizes a purity and innocence energy present. The head hangs low in the darkness, absorbed in energy that is pained, doubtful, and grim. Above the horses head is light space with five cups hovering above the creatures head. The cups are on a higher plane than the horse, above him, and he pays no attention to their presence. Instead the energy of the card is paying most of the attention with the darker aspects of his experience while completely missing there are always both energies of shadow and light present. If we are alive, we are never fully engrossed in only darkness, but with energy focusing solely in that direction it can seem that is…all encompassing. When looked at more closely, a tiny detail on the horse is seen is a slight smile, barely noticeable. An energy is felt that perhaps on some level, in a subtle way, this dark energy is enjoyed in some way and is what is adding fuel to this low vibration. While there are five cups floating above, perhaps the energy here is suggesting there is a choice of not wanting to see.
To see a free spirited and strong creature slumped over in darkness can suggest that something in the querents life is not aligning with their soul purpose, that which makes them feel alive. vibrant and in harmony with life. It is possible the querent will intuitively know what the card is pointing to as it is drawn. The initial feeling of what is seen is worth the investigation as it can be a trigger that is connected to something deeper and ignites a initial spark inside. If there is a time where perhaps we are not expressing the passions that are intertwined deeply with our heart we can begin to lose vibrancy. Our unique soul expressions are a necessary part of our health and happiness and many times are linked with the main source of our life force/prana. If one is prioritizing only practical matters before that which makes their soul move, this sadness or despair can creep in and replace creative vision and expression. Five of Cups invites balance to what is practical in nature, but to never forget what excites and nourishes oneself deeply. Although this present time can have a shade of powerlessness on various levels, we always have the power of attention. Where is one focusing attention? What is the quality of life that this attention focused is highlighting?
Five of Cups represents a loss or pain and on top of that shame and guilt that is felt. This is what keeps the energy in the darkness. The pain felt is not coming from the experience itself, but from the mental and emotional activity added on top of the turmoil already being experience. This stretches out the healing process for weeks, months, even years. Some beings may go through life with this extra layer of shame or guilt added on top of an experience that is long gone. Because this mental activity is held on to it makes the healing much more painful and drawn out. There is a victimization going on in this card. Clinging to the past when there is so much to be immensely grateful for now. There are times when we have to shake these ghosts that seem to be sucking our sweet nectar. There is a time to feel it all, but there is also a time to check in and make sure one is not dwelling in the darkness for too long. It arises for us to learn and grow, but it isn’t meant for us to set up camp and remain in the shadows. Energy is always flowing, the waters always moving, and there is always the opportunity to navigate in a new way. Five of Cups can represent something like an investment in unhealthy emotions or ways of thinking, a death in the family, something that is weighing on you in the slightest or heaviest way that is draining your energy. Ask yourself, maybe through journaling or whenever you feel, has there been to deep of an investment to that which is no longer serving you? Have you been grieving, sitting in sadness, or wallowing for too long? It is time to get fresh energy flowing. Whatever has happened or whatever state you find yourself in, it can be learned from and used wisely as another tool through your travels.
All that pains us and pushes us is also a catalyst for creation. Some of the most beautiful artists in the world experienced tremendous pain in life and transmuted this energy to beauty for themselves and others. We are not only one label or shape that we can package nicely and say “This is me” Jesus….that would be fucking boring. If one can package themselves in any shade of the broad spectrum, this will be a sad day. We are all vast and uniquely orchestrated beings. When we identify heavy with one aspect of self we can tend to ignore or even have a distaste for the other. Sometimes this can block or cut off valuable aspects of or being. Five of Cups is an opportunity to embrace what may feel harsh in the beginning, but a reminder to not dwell there and know that all can be transmuted into creative energy. Many times when we feel we are in a slump or even stuck in any state of despair we think well shit…..THIS IS IT!!!! At that specific moment is when the most brilliant creation is waiting be birthed forth. As death comes of an aspect of being we are ready for the creative force to move us. This is part of the invitation here. Look at what is being tuned into and do not wallow. Feel, but do not stay in any lowly state too long. Allow your being to mature, learn and move on.
We are vast, creative forces with many options to explore. Allow the natural movement flow.