Against a black background a red, wilted rose sheds one petal from her bloom. At the top of the card there is half a moon shining with a string of pentacles in between the light and dark of the card. There is sadness and loss present, from spiritual to material. This is a time where a feeling of aloneness is present, but not the kind of aloneness which is strong and fulfilled on its own. This is an overwhelming feeling of lack within and without and a time where it feels like there is no energy to move forward.
We are all bound to go through these kinds of major deaths in our life. Where it can truly feel like one is dying. Often, and of course not all the time, there are many little things that if not expressed correctly remain within ones being and at a certain point must come to the surface. This is a time where one is depleted in their energy because of not taking full responsibility for themselves. Although not always easy to hear, one can only come to a place of loss and defeat when they have given up their internal power to external sources for means of joy. Whatever chaos is being experienced now, if within ones self, a relationship, family, work, creativity….this period is for now only. There is a reason for it, for one to wake up more fully to their own internal power and to no longer seek this from any external source. It is a hard lesson to receive, but a blessing for one to get real and honest.
It is time to open ones eyes. To not walk around blindfolded and to really see what is going on within ones experience. Everything is reflecting where one is seeing lack within themselves, therefore it is being experienced within ones life. What is it that feels like its missing, that is not already present now? Whatever that is, look at it more closely and see if you are in fact holding this back from yourself. Can the people around you, your work, any situation that is being experienced truly hold you back from being you? It can be easy to blame even if another has caused hurt, but why is this being reflected anyway? Why is this showing up in the present moment experience? There is something present that is here that points back to you and you alone. Nothing can shift your present moment naturalness of being you unless you give up your own authority and leak your own power. It is a tender time and that is okay, we all experience death and it is crucial we experience a death of our illusions. Know your power will be uncovered again and you will come out even stronger and with greater depth. Allow your self to fully be with yourself right now, to listen to your own voice before drinking in what other have to say. Allow this aspect of you that wants to die to die, and continue to bloom again.